Friends are not realy Friends

I realized today that friends are not really friends. The good ones are rare and we always know who they are, but for the others.... they are actually uncaring individuals who at any moment will thrust a dagger right in your heart or in your back, depending on the direction you are standing! If they want something you have, they will go to great lengths to gain it. Even if it costs you everything. By everything, I mean, your integrity, dignity and yes, even your job! It can strip you to nothing, leave you naked and vulnerable, even if you are not at fault, you ARE the perpetrator and not the victim. How can this be? When did the rules change? I am amazed and confused and ..... yes, a bit angry that people want to destroy your very existence for no known reason and can do so with one single solitary action. POOF! you are done! Gone, Fenito!
The daggers have been thrust and you have NO recourse! Even though you are innocent, you are out the door! Just like that! That is the American way! Complete and uncut!
Who do you trust? What do you say? Whom can you say it to? It is an abomination! A crime of such magnitude! I live in America,(last time I looked!) Land of the Free, Home to the Brave.... excetera, excetera...Why does everyone else have the freedom to express what they want to whom they want, but the minute, the very minute you say anything, it's post office time and never make sure the information is correct! So by the time it gets to people of authority, it is so blown out of proportion, that the original act ever so innocent, becomes a volcano! Who died and made them God? AH! But God is not heartless! "Friends" are! God does not change the story and God knows who did! My grandmother, once told me..... It is easier to remember the truth, than it is to remember the lie! Lies change each time you tell it, Truth never changes, but not always acknowledged. How sad! To live their life built on lies and allow them to have such power over your life! Is it worth it? Now.............. I understand! Sad, isn't it?

Happy New Year!

Here it is... a new year! Doesn't feel new! Doesn't feel different! Just another day! Got my first bill from the Hospital! I had to have my gallbladder out the week before Christmas! Glad it came out but the first bill I got was 20, 000.00! OUCH! I have some insurance but it only covered the first day I was told! This is not counting the Surgeon and the tests that are billed separately including the ER charges! I got out of the hospital on a Wednesday and went to work on Friday. To both jobs! I work two. Fortunately, both jobs have been fairly good about keeping me at light duty. My evening job has too many chiefs and not enough Indians and so, one hand sometimes does not know what the other does! It can be insane! When they go to switching positions, I sometimes get bumped to the front, cause they forget! I just keep quiet and take my pain pill when I get home! I am feeling bloated today, could be cause I had sauerkraut yesterday and it bloated me! Well, I had thought about cleaning out the family closet, but no matter how hard I try, God said you can't get rid of family. As much as you would like! So, you deal with it, or you can ignore them. I guess "stay cordial and keep your distance when you can will work! At least for now. So will this year be better? Will I find happiness? will my load be lighter? Time will tell....
ahiof vosij (oops! that is from Happy, my 3 year old cat) he had to come get a kiss! so as he got his kiss, he typed a few..... well.... unrecognizable words... hmmm wonder what it means! Or do I want to know!? 3 cats! They own me! I love all animals, wish I had the money, time and space to take care of all of them! But 3 cats are enough! I had cats, dogs, gerbils and turtles growing up, but the cats I had then never had the personality my cats I have now do! more about them later!

Work

Sometimes, I wonder where certain people came from why they are here! I mean, really! A couple of managers at my 2nd job act so infantile most of the time, the chase each other thru the restaurant and talk about computer games to the point when you try to get your job done and they are in the way ignoring you, you are inconveniencing them. What is wrong with this picture!? But, you do something they did not think of...... wallah; you are an idiot! What makes these young managers so God like? They are far from it, but yet they act as though they are perfect and how dare you be funny! They even tell you, you are not funny! I can't wait for the rainy season! I want to watch them walk on water! I just don't get it! so much for the "FUN" second job. I am sitting here typing and falling asleep. Time to go to bed!

interesting!

I happen to be a little curious about blogs... so I went "blogging and hit the "next" button! A whole world opened up! You can say just about anything, it does not matter, if you are not interested, move on... just hit the next button! Everyone's likes and dislikes, at the click of a button! What power! What knowledge! From Canada to Orange County, I think I will try to insert a picture, my 3 inhabitants (cats) are currently hiding in slumber, they don't like me on the computer, so here is my opportunity to challenge the blog site to add..... a picture of my favorite hobby! I'm off.... to see if I can find it! Well, no success! I found pictures but uploading them I will have to spend more time doing. I would like to decorate my blog page to, but I guess you can not do everything in one night...... So 3 posts, I am done for now. Tomorrow is work, work work! I have 2 jobs that keep me busy! Maybe I could leave this on and my cats would.... oh! I am so pathetic! They only do dishes! Ha ha!

Here it goes.... to 2009 Good bye with a smile.. glad to see you go!

I am looking forward to 2010. Good health, new friends, cleaning out the family closet.... Hmmm.... should that become the New Years resolution? I promised not to make one, but I almost can't resist! Cleaning out the family closet! Gives me goose bumps! So, does this mean to get rid of or ignore certain family members who may ruin my new year!? Consider the outcome. Sweeping out a narcissistic member who is obsessive compulsive to make me look bad. She took up where my X left off. Not a fair trade. Who ever said blood was thicker than water did not know my family.
Blogging is new to me, But after watching Julie & Julia, I realized... anyone can cook, or.... write a blog no matter how silly it may be! Is anyone out there? Does this go to cyber space? Maybe, the next few blogs will be airing the goodbyes of "09" so the closet will be empty for "10"! Wow! 2010! I never thought as a child about the year 2010! exciting, but scary!
See you later!

Chared Embers

Day 1:
I have decided to write a blog today, not that I have nothing to do, but merely to air my head. I have no doubt, I am the only one who will ever read this. So........ here it goes....

Chared Embers. Why the name?
It represents my life.
And how to rebuild.